erm if any church friends who are reading this tell me if it is wrong

yesterday coming up to genting from KL
i donno why but my mum told me tat she feels tat i have changed
she say because i never go to church ...
she say i have changed bak to the old me
the me which have no went to church
the me which she feels care about my parents
no matter how many times i go out
maybe is because on 17 march
i was out with yuen ting to NP to get the software from school
and i was going to DS tat night
and i told my parents i was going out
but they wan me to go visit my uncle
if it was me in the pass i will usually insist on going out with my friends
but tat day i actually miss DS to go out with my parents to visit my uncle
because i feel like i have to
so i did
and when my mum told me i have changed
to me i feel tat i did not change
i didn't tell mum tat
i still am a christian
and will be one because i didn't dare to
to avoid a scolding and a bad holiday
but i personally still do my quiet time
( but i have not done master life for the pass 3 day because i didn't wan my parents to suspect)
it's not me who change is it ?
i sill have Christ and God in my life
i pray daily
maybe it is not me who have changed huh ?
it is God's plan for me ?
to use me to change my parents ?
and next week tuesday i going to have a camp
and i will have to skip 1 whole week of masterlife
if i don bring it with me
wat am i gonna do ??? help me please ~~~!!!!



and i seem to be very bothered >.<>.<
and i cant seem to find why i am feeling this way ~~~
>.< !!!!
at least life's good ~~~~
i am enjoying green tea latte ~~~